Takaw... Wherever you are..

It's been nine years since he left me... But it still feels like it was just yesterday.

He was one of the most amazing people I know. We call each other "Takaw". It was him who first called me like that. We were both band members; I was the band leader and he was the ever talented member who knew how to play all kinds of instruments (from saxophone to trombone to trumpet to clarinet) except for the strings. I would always lead the band members to the table during fiestas, and he would always follow me. After all of the people had their food, Erwin and I would be seen at the table still getting our share. And that's how it all started. Pareho kaming matakaw. He would comb my hair in school programs during high school (when I was not the emcee or part of the organizing committee). He didn't mind if a lot of people would see him do that. He was one vain person, keeping face powder inside his shirt pocket and always combing his well trimmed hair. We were seat mates during English class, and one day, I heard him sing this line : "I do cherish you, for the rest of my life, you don't have to think twice..." He was just the sweetest.

Just last night, I heard Toni Braxton's and Babyface's "How Could An Angel Break My Heart"
and I began to miss him again. That was the last song I heard him sing. I miss doing crazy stuffs with him. During high school, he asked me and Arvie to accompany him to his girl's house to ask for her parents to allow him to court her. Isn't that sweet (and brave)? Bottom line, that girl became his first and only girlfriend. And I was the proudest (I'm not sure if there is such a word) best buddy at that time.

Three days before he left, I gave him a simple note, thanking Him for everything he did for me. I didn't know why I did that. I just felt the urge of letting him know how much I appreciate and admire him for being one of the coolest guys I knew. In that note, I wrote that we would be sitting beside each other on graduation day. I told him that even if we would go to different universities, we would set aside some of our time so we could still do crazy stuffs together. I promised him that I would always be wherever he needs me when he needs me. And three days after, I realized why I had to write that note.

Takaw, I know that you are happy with our Great Lord. I want you to know that I still think of you every time, wishing that we had spent a few more moments together. No one can ever replace such a beautiful soul. No one can ever replace you in my heart. You will always be with me. I will always have you.

I miss you...

To Mama and to all the mothers...

I was watching America's Got Talent and happened to watch Neil E. Boyd. He sang this very beautiful song for mothers. As usual, i was crying and missed my Mama, even if I was just talking to her over the phone two hours ago. I hope you all like this song..

MAMA
Il Divo

Mama thank you for who I am
Thank you for all the things I'm not
Forgive me for the words unsaid
And for the times
I forgot
Mama remember all my life
You showed me love,you sacrificed
Think of those young and early days
How I've changed
Along the way (along the way)
Bridge:
And I know you believed
And I know you had dreams
And I'm sorry it took all this time to see
That I am where I am because of your truth
And I miss you , I miss you
Mama forgive the times you cried
Forgive me for not making right
All of the storms I may have caused
And I've been wrong
Dry your eyes (dry your eyes)
Bridge : Cause I know you ....
Mama I hope this makes you smile
I hope you're happy with my life
At peace with every choice I made
How I've changed
Along the way (along the way)
Cause I know you believed in all of my dreams
And I owe it all to you ,mama

Ilang taon ka na ba, Anna?

I just love Charlie Green! I am a fan of his music, and even if it makes me really old fashioned, I don't care. I love him and the likes of Michael Buble, Jose Mari Chan, The Beatles, Engelbert Humperdinck, The Platters, and a lot more of wonderful singers from their times. I find their music really relaxing, and I play their songs especially when I feel stressed. If only I can meet all of them... hehehe! (Kaya ka tinatawag na manang e...tsk!)